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I'M JUST A SELFISH BITCH!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
insecure or selfish or jealous?
lately, my couz arrive here at manila from riyadh. i was so excited to
see her. when i got home, i quicklt run to her so that i can hug and
kiss her. OMG. i really miss her! but the most exciting part on her
come back is the giving of her pasalubong. i was really happy because
she had a lot of stuff that she gave to me. dress, lotion, and other
cosmetic. i was really expecting that she had bonggang pasalubong
especially to me because i was the one who answer her needs while she
was in riyadh especially to those things that she want to deliver to
her(but i buy those things using her money. haha) of course, other
relatives came to see her and have a little conversation.
okay! let straight to the point. of course, i wrote again a blog entry becasue i was hurt! but i really don't know this feelings. ggr! i don't know what i'm gonna do to this feelings. anyway, a while ago, we have conversation with my cousin. then, i just knew that she also gave some stuff to my auntie (which we have the same age. and we treat each other as a cousin). i am really mad, but not that mad, rather had a bad impression or bad feelings everytime i saw her. i dont know if im just insecure to her or what? i thought i had more stuff given by my cousin rather then her. but i guess so. i'm really pissed off everytime my relatives said good things about her. because the truth is im more good than her. well, i wont mention those things to prove it. i accept, she is more beautiful than me but she is just whiter than me. hahahaha. my ear pissed off when my cousin said that "si *** gumganda habang lumalaki noh!?!" wooh! im tired to think negative to those i heard. urg! what im gonna do?!? am i insecure, selfish or jealous?
what do you think baby?
*i hope one day, i will be the star in their eyes!. -
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I'M IN PAIN!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
still hurt.
last night, i was hiding behind my pillow because my tears is falling down again. i got hurt again to those people who used to hurt me. im just thinking when did fucking thing will end? it hurt me more each day i see them. they really don't know the effects of their sayings, comments, etc.,. they really suck. what will i do to prevent those things that hurt me? i'm so pissed off. i change my bad attitude to them because i thought we will be okay if i will be kind to them but my thought is wrong. instead, they are worst now than before. so idecided to let me back my attitude before. they force me to show my worst attitude. DAPAT LANG SKNILA UN!. well, im starting to do it. we'll see who's the loser.
i try to be good to the people i hate (except to those I REALLY HATE FROM THE START). but they don't feel it. everything is changing so i will change also. they will see the BRAND NEW ME!
if you will promise not to hurt me, we'll be in good condition, if not, GOOD LUCK!
they say evrything about my life but they don't really know about me. i hate them! they made comments to me that make me really hurt! ggrr! im so pissed off to them. i think no one believes in me. why? am i really bad person? ggrr! -
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near to death! :) (Saturday, September 12, 2009)
malapit na rin sumabog! OMG! yesterday, while i was in my way home, i am really thinking for what we or i did in the whole day. i was just think that what if one day, i wake up with no friends? maybe i wont survive that kind of life.
yesterday is my computer laboratory. heart was late. when she arrived, she sit beside me but we were not talking to each other. truthfully, as of now, im not confortable to talk to heart because things between me were getting change. and it hurt me a lot! i dont know if im just jealous or what. i dont alk to her since last week because i think im jealous that she and allan (who im really pissed off with this gay although his my friend.) was very close. and the worst thing i really hate is she adapted some of the attitude of alan that i really hate. that's why i dont want to talk to her. but i wsa nervous because we are groupmates in thesis. i just worried that the fire between us will go in our work. actually, i really miss heart! i hope she get back to me. :(
at afternoon, aso, cang and i was renting a computer in shop near at our school. we were busy at that time but when i got finish to my work, i decided to see some updates in my account in FS. i saw the new update of one of my friend. she uploaded some new picture. when carla saw the pictures of her, she laugh because of the art she made to her pictures. actually, i was smiling because i feel "angat" every time people criticize her. when aso looked at my pc and look also to my friend's picture, she said "maputi pala 'yan". of course, i disagree! haha. (that is so bad!) when the time i disagree, aso made faces. i think she was irritated with that kind of attitude of mine. i was really upset because aso is one of my best and favorite pal. im just pissed off for what i heard from her.
before we came back to school, i was thinking if i will go home or not. im nervous because of alan's text message to aso. he didn't know that news article will do in a pair. we dont know that he -
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things about me
CELEBRITIES I WANT TO DATE: Khloe Kardashian
CELEBRITIES I WANT TO MEET: Khloe Kardashian, Kim Kardashian, Kourtney Kardashian, Mariah Carey
MORE ABOUT ME: a girl who had simple dreams. girl want to travel around the world but of course i want first to travel here at my country. a girl who had a lot of heartache (not literally) girl who want many friends but friends that you can really called friends.
